well, well, well,

setelah sekian lama, akhirnya mood lagi buat nulis di blog.

meskipun blog ini nyaris gak pernah disenggol sama orang lain (maybe because i don't have many friends or whatever), tidak merontokkan niatku buat nulis tulisan yang mungkin tidak penting buat orang lain.

but then again, i don't write for anybody's but mine's sake.

setelah dua tahun kuliah, aku mulai kepentok kejenuhan.

yang awalnya lumayan rajin buat kuliah, and cukup excited buat ngerjain tugas dan praktek, jadi kuliah males-malesan, tugas udah jarang buat (by my own), pokoknya udah jenuh dan males tingkat tinggi.

kalo dapet tugas, suka nunda-nunda, ujung-ujungnya diriku sendiri yang sengsara... :(

kalo lagi bikin tugas terus mentok cause i just don't understand, or simply not confident enough to answer it, i took a certain shortcut, that is copying my classmates task.

i think i can get away with it, because the other classmates that did exactly the same (or even worse) looks just fine.

story short, i get a horrible grades, while they get a fine to good grades (jerks!).

i was kinda down at that time.

tried to have a nice kinda serious conversations with few of my few friends about how i felt about the grade, but turns out, they seems didn't care enough.

well, i can't actually blame them, i mean i'm in college now, people tend to get individualistic.

but still it was kinda hurt, so i act like nothing important happened and try not to be so sensitive about the lack of response.

but  i promise to my self, when i take the 'short semester' remedial program, i will give it my all.

i will focus, and do it as well as i can.

and a month after...

voila!

i got two A out of 3 subject!

yahoo...!!

it's totally pump up my spirits,

even though i'm still concern that i will graduate late because of the last semester crappy grades.

but i'm not giving up (yet, hopefully).

i've consider several possibilities (is that how you spell it? my english is getting rusty), that'll save me.

well turns out, i'm not completely doom.

there's still hope!!

all i need to do is doing well, in this new semester, and i can make it all up, and save my head and pride.

all this experience this last 2 months, makes me realize that if i put enough thought and effort, i can do anything (sorry if its kinda lame).

okay, that's all for now.

i'll write again, someday.

ciao.


n'abandonnez pas!
(i co-paste it from google translate ;p)